Sunday, January 16, 2011
Yes I am still around.... I was really sick this weekend but getting through it now. Despite being busy with the kids and some deadlines that I had to get through, there are moments more often now, that I find myself just enveloped in silence. I remember times when I would have craved to have solitude, but lately it has come with a realization that I really am on my own most of the day and it does become lonely.
I have teenage boys who are their own social lives and busy schedules that even if I am there with them I am not a participant of it, just an observer. I am also grateful of the times that my husband can communicate with me but at the same time it is still a reminder of how far away he really is and how no matter how much I try to keep a straight face and a strong heart the emotions of missing someone that is really a part of your life can become overwhelming.
I try to stay as busy as I can but there are those moments where I find myself alone. I know the days will pass.....just wished it passed faster.
As the season passes from the quiet winters and gray days, I will welcome spring with open arms when I can finally hear the song birds by my window, the spring rains, and the buzzing of bees. I never thought I would miss such sounds and miss the visual energy of blooming flowers and butterflies in the garden.