Sunday, January 16, 2011

Silence...



Yes I am still around.... I was really sick this weekend but getting through it now. Despite being busy with the kids and some deadlines that I had to get through, there are moments more often now, that I find myself just enveloped in silence. I remember times when I would have craved to have solitude, but lately it has come with a realization that I really am on my own most of the day and it does become lonely.

I have teenage boys who are their own social lives and busy schedules that even if I am there with them I am not a participant of it, just an observer. I am also grateful of the times that my husband can communicate with me but at the same time it is still a reminder of how far away he really is and how no matter how much I try to keep a straight face and a strong heart the emotions of missing someone that is really a part of your life can become overwhelming.

I try to stay as busy as I can but there are those moments where I find myself alone. I know the days will pass.....just wished it passed faster.



As the season passes from the quiet winters and gray days, I will welcome spring with open arms when I can finally hear the song birds by my window, the spring rains, and the buzzing of bees. I never thought I would miss such sounds and miss the visual energy of blooming flowers and butterflies in the garden.

3 comments:

Kalei's Best Friend said...

I know how u feel.. Spring is coming.. This week, we are warm again back in the high 70's!!.And I am in the mood for planting again..BTW my middle one has become my son's mentor.. She had a session w/him yesterday and she was a bit nervous..they did talk a lot and this may be what he needs...(fingers XX). How long till Bo's tour is over?

Abigail's Creative Journey said...

I am glad your middle one decided to be a mentor to your son. I hope it all works out. :) About Bo's tour we have no clue. :( Since he is on rotation we don't know if it will be 6 months or more because it depends on whether they do have a replacement or not so we will not know until it happens or if he gets word before it. So right now we are counting down to summer time? But no date. I just know he has to be home before the next holidays because then that would be a year. :(

Kalei's Best Friend said...

omg, just asking since another blogger posted that his deployment has ended and he's going back home (HI.) he left about 3 mos. earlier than Bo did... It sure went fast for this guy...